Painting

Nonrep. Untitled... 2006
by eva pfaff...me!

ambitions and world distruction

It seems i have a huuuuge connection with my work these days...an exciting inspiration that i can not see...and do not know, but it is there. And I am taking advantage. I never want to stop creating, if it's the only thing i put all my ambitions into doing, I will consider myself a little, yet significant worth to the world.

Speaking of the world....what in the HELL are we doing to it these days! People only worry about themselves ... we are takers... what are we giving back to the earth that we haven't already taken in greater quantities that could ever be replinished. Read Ishmael! It's a fantasticle book!

DANGLE the Bulimic, yet fat, Cat!

Dangle the cat is fat and bulimic at the same time.
If you have any suggestions to make
This poor pussy a happy pussy,
Please comment on my myspace blog,
And save Shayne & Clif from puke duty.

No cat deserves such a human illness.

let's hike up to coit tower! who is in?

my home away from home!! I will see you in MARCH 2006!!! EVERYBODY WATCH OUT!

Benrik adventures

WHO knows what the day will bring...well...I had been driving home from my grandparents house with 2 of my sisters, and we got hungry.
A stop at the great McDonalds was what we needed...
as we dreamt of the fat and calories that would run through our vains, I had a brilliant plan...

I almost couldn't contain my excitement..and nervously gave my sisters strange looks...which they became annoyed of when I refused to tell them what they meant! eheheh they would soon know.

We drove up to the little talking box, you know, the one that asks you what you would like to order...
.and go ahead when you are ready and so on.

WELL!! I forgot to roll down my window, and until i realized my sisters were now giving ME the STRAGE looks, and then I stopped ordering to roll it down.
nerves..i tell ya.
OK, so then I order..
1 strawberry sunday(bethany)
1 med. diete coke (julia)
1 ketchup sunday (me)

Excuse me..said the box...did you say ketchup sunday? (he sounded a little upset..but this is just what i wanted...)

I then explained that I was a couple of months pregnant and my cravings were starting EARLY! heheh...
OF COURSE I AM NOT PREGNANT!! but he wouldnt have to know that. uh ... I don't think we make those? uh...hold on mam ...he said
.oh, but you know that ketchup you use to put in those little cups for your fries? well, can you just put a big squirt of that ontop? ...... i wined into the little talking box...????uhh....just hold on lady, he said
(just about now my sisters are looking at me and asking me WHY I am saying such CRAZY things..???? WHY??? are you actualy pregnant?? are you seriously going to eat that?? STOP, your scarying me....)
can you pull up to the window? he asked
I pull forward..
.this nice looking black guy stares at me concerned and im sure a little scared for me to eat that sunday.
.hehe
We can't make that sunday for you miss....he stuttered....uh...

but im craving it so bad...can't you just do it for me? i said kinda pushy like and then batted my eyes....like that would help!
he looked like he didn't have any clue what to do...so i said..i guess you could just give me a plain sunday and a bunch of ketchup pacets ..
.but that is going to be messy.
ok, fine..just hold on...he brought me a sunday with the ketchup already inside..and i smiled HUGE!! OH THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH , you are AMAZING.
and then handed the guy a $10 dollar bill!
heheheand drove off....as i did so i told julia and bethany to not worry about it...it was all benriks fault...and that i had to do it or i would have already been a faliure at this journal, and my life would not change.hehe

so i have lied...and made a scene, and once again my family doesn't understand my logic..but that is the beauty of benrik

my staf

bulky
soft
helpful
walk
old
knots

It is called changing

Since the last time i wrote a blog here, I have changed emencly...for the better i think. But the point is i have changed. I am much more self confident...and outgoing...myself...and becoming who i want to be. I have also found many people i like to consider soul mates. They make my day something to look forward to, and no matter what goes wrong, one of them can always cheer me up agian.

warren doones sunset, summer 2005

2005


2006 ..changing happens every day...mostly on the inside..and that affects the outside