brake ups

my brother broke up with kalee today......i feel so bad for her, when he had a problem with her he didnt tell her and then he just kept holding a grudge... she thought the relationship was growing but he thought he was acting, being insincere.... i think he was being a scared little boy hoping it would all go away, he should have told her how he felt about things she did weeks ago so they could fix them! grrrr

my brother should know better...with 6 sisters! take my advise brenton! goooddness!

no time

There is no time for playing around for me this semester, not even enough time to get a job. I have had a huge paper due almost every other class for the past 2 1/2 weeks!!! its so exhausting! Julia and i go to icc to work on our papers because its so much quieter and there are more computers avaliable! It's so fun having my sister in class, we both push eachother to do our best.............RING RING!!! a phone just rang! crazy, in a computer lab!..................so anyways i hope it holds up untill the last day of school because i would really like to bring my GPA up! What do i want to do for the rest of my life???

that is the question that makes me get nervous about the fact that i am going to college to get a degree in something i may not need for the rest of my life... i mean i want to do so many different things... some people think it would be nice just to do one job for the rest of thier lives and have kids and just work to live, but i want to live to live, i want to work where ever i feel like working... it sounds impossible and unreasonable to many people but i guess i have a fear of commitment... i dont want a job to tie me down that i will soon be bored with... i want to travel with a companion/friend, and LIVE.... every day with new adventures!

I got a new sweat shirt yesterday! white, with ICC in purple lettering! its pretty!
i never got one from the academy of art... they dont sell them... all i have is a blue sweat shirt that says san francisco

so tired... 4 hours of sleep, im so not used to that!

brenton getting ready for his girlfriend kaylie?? i never spell her name right, lol, later they are freezing while i take a few pictures before the HS dance, visa versa?? not sure, but kaylies dress is AMAZING! oh,and also mom sprayed the corsage with glitter, and the daisys started to DIE! not cool, so she goes out to get more flowers... they come and go and she doesnt get to see them... dances are so fun! oh but wait they decide they have enough time and come back after mom has been frustrated with me for letting them go without the flowers! haha

lol, brenton i was taking a full body pic, you didnt have to lean! ahha, and that would be the smile chandler used for his wedding photos!!?? i love you bro!

hah cute

me with a perm!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh

Stephanie, would you say you were high on life???!!! heheheheheh, this kid rocks!

my future

i want a cottage, with lots of flowers, and im going to design modern 1800s cloths to wear! and jewlery, and im going to be thin again, and im going to live off the land... try to eat from my own garden! heheheheh
no i havent gone crazy, i just want to have a cute, elegant, and ruff life.... sound wierd? well its a fantasy, like in the movie ever after, i wouldnt mind doing all the work "cinderella" has to do, but she also gets to dress up sometimes. SO my lifestyle would be like hers! hah
oh geez
and then inside this midevil cottage with a castle wall around the property, i would have a studio!! and then i would have a room adjoining that would be my little shop where i will sell candles and soaps and herbs and veggies and apples and art! and maybe some litte crafts!
what a dream!

ok 2nd dream
work on a cruise ship! haha, always on vacation!

3rd dream
every summer join some form of volunteer peace corps or quest group
i so want to help, and travel!

4rth
finish school, get a nice job, find a funny man, still travel every summer, and make babies! ......im getting old! 21 already... my mom had kids at 22, i cant imagine having any kids before i am 26 at least!.... that gives me 7+ years to have fun! and im stuck in school! lol, but i will not give up on my schooling, that is something both my parents did and they are having a hell of a time without degrees.
the thing i hate about degrees is that i feel that if i pick one i will get stuck in that area, and if i dont persue that after graduation that i will have spent all that money and time for something that doesnt really matter anymore! its scary to me

ok thats enough for now
now time for some pictures!!!

speech class

so i am realizing how layed back community college is compaired to the academy of art. So far i have had 4 cancelled classes and a speech that has been moved back about 2 weeks! Lol its almost depressing because i paid for these classes and the more personal days the teacher takes the less sick days i get because the professor is going to want to get more done in one day than ussual! HOW DARE THEY BE SICK! lol
anyhow, i am sick right now, my fam. have been sick for about a week and a half. Coughing and spitting........BLAGH! I told myself i wasnt going to get it.... well, i missed one day of drinking 64 oz. of water, which seemed to be enough to keep the illness from settling in my system but that one day ruined it, and now i am miserable. My voice went down like 2 octaves during my english 111 class. But i am going to get well.... I MUST!

i am excited for valentines day!! i have so many nice decorations to put up in the kitchen! hearts everywhere!!! Heart boxes with little things in it for everyone in the fam. and hearts dangling from the chanelier, and hears stuck to the walls, and hear confetti on the table!! AND a red flowering pot over flowing with FAKE roses! heheh
i cant help it! i love to decorate for the hollidays!
ok, brakes almost over

our second circle opening took place here behind the lamp... at about 1am... on a new moon! COLD but very funny! hehe

A walk in the woods

I am trying to appriciate the nature around me more lately. Not many people do that these days. I mean yes, a person might notice a beautiful tree, or sunset, or body of water... but only when they get a chance to slow down and take that kind of stuff in. My sisters and i are making time for nature. Today we went on a hike in the woods, we had been there millions of times before but what made it special was that we had a different set of mind. The snow was melting and the stream was slowly flowing. We had decided to take a different path, one that we hadnt traveled before and soon realized why we dont go that way. There were to many houses in the distance, and even though you arnt supposed to hunt in these woods we found a hunters hide out. How depressing
Anyways it was cold, but very calming, and a good work out! Beth, Julia, and I all almost slipped and fell down one of the bigger frozen hills. YIKES! hahahah AND bethany and i both thought we were stepping on ice and ended up steping through a thin sheet of ice. We were in mud water shin deep! YUCK, and again, cold.
lol

pretty bird